..its nothing to do today!!! i just spend my day at my room but just now i went to al-halal market and bought groceries!!! i'm really2 feel lonely now!! i dont know why, mayB coz i'm too bzzz with my degree coursework till i'm forget everything n anybdy that really2 need me before....  wut should i do now??? it looks like i'm starting to BLAME myself coz of taken an action without thinking wut it gonna happen NEXT??!!! arghhhhhhh..... someone please help me!!! wut should i do?!!! if we tooo LOVE someone, we will LOST him but if we just TAKE it EASY of someone we will assume as USELESS...!! so,what should i do noww??!!!

so, i just dedicated this song to someoneee....that really special to me!!

AVRIL LAVINGE - Anything But Ordinary

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep,it's my
lullaby
Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I want to scream it makes me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

To walk within the lines
That make my life so boring
I want to know that I have been
To the extreme
So knock me off my feet (my feet)
Come on now give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

Let down your defenses
Use no common sense
If you look you will see
That this world is a beautiful, accident,
turbulent, succulent, opulent,
permanent, no way
I wanna taste it
Don't wanna waste it away

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak my self out
I laugh myself to sleep,it's my
lullaby

...dah lamer aku x update aku nyer journal nie, so alang2 aku ader SELOKA SUKARIA yg baru siap d reka khas untuk sahabat handal ku dak2 HBC, so i just upload it here!! hope u guys enjoy it!! kalo ader sesiapa nak m'balas pon silakan!! muahahahaha...

Assalamualaikum pembuka bicara,

HBC studon empunye seloka,

Bukan mngumpat bukan mngata,

Hanyalah JOKE semata-mata.

Sebelum aku mreka cita,

Tangan d hulur maaf d pinta,

Andai kata tersilap bahasa,

Ini sekadar pantun seloka.

HBC studon glamour orangnya,

Macam2 ragam macam2 cerita,

24 orang jumlah asalnya,

susah senang d tanggung bersama.

Hadibah Hassim pereka seloka,

Orangnya tinggi ceria sentiasa,

Menyakat dan mengena hobi semasa,

Erra fazira idola pojaannya

Farah Najdiah member sebiliknya,

Sentiase bersama tak kira masa,

Nak kate kembar, lain tros wajahnya,

Bila bersama kecoh di buatnya.

Khamsah Bakar empunya cerita,

Hitam manis specky lak orangnya,

K-me name manjanya,

Mdm. Hanyza ader iras wajahnya.

Munirah Zamani low profile orangnya,

Tapi glamour d maner jue berada,

Sorang yang setia dalam cintanya,

But watch out sape2 mengacaunya.

Norazilah Jusoh empunya diri,

Senang d dekati tapi sukar d fahami,

Orangnya kecil2 cili padi,

Kalo drive “mak oiiii” laju skali

C foo HBC gelaran d beri,

Orangnya baik dan pemurah skali,

Wong Wee San namer d beri,

Suka senyum setiap hari.

Assignments d buat konpem lewat punya,

Meeting and b’persatuan serahkan kepadanya,

Ponteng klas dan tdo adalah kegemarannya,

Itulah Hamizan Salleh empunya cerita.

Ahmad Zikri baik n pemurah orangnya,

Ramai jugak tergila2 akan dirinya,

Ader kreta agong yang klasiknya,

Orang kutuk pon takde effect punya

Seng Yew Tiong Chinese orangnya,

Kuala Terengganu-Kemaman dekat bagi dirinya,

Orangnya specky pandai bergaya,

Skali dier speed konpem tak endah orang lainnya.

Nampak jer macho tapi sensitip skali,

Salah cakap sket dah nak amek hati,

Wan Mohd Al-Hafidz namer d beri,

Sker surfing d pantai telok kalong time FREE

Norjuriati baik budi pekerti,

Semua kerja yang d buat mesti teliti,

Sorang minah yang sangat fanatik ngan siti,

Tapi time ketawa memang takleh nak brenti

Macam2 orang, macam2 gaya,

Samalah cam Shatila awek mamat putrajaya,

Gadis manis yang pandai bergaya,

Amat mementingkan perhubungan dengan rakan sebaya.

Norazuraini Kuala Berang mari punya,

smuer lecturer sker ngan perangai sopannya,

suka bergaul dan kuat merajuk orangnya,

So, watch out saper2 yang ingin mendekatinya

Husna Abdullah nama di beri,

Tapi kak long namer yg senang d kenali,

Awek klate yg baik dan pemurah skali,

Pernah memegang semua jawatan glamour d TATI

Ingat Awana Kijal ingat Wana punya,

Bas Thong Aik pengangkutan utamanya,

Kemasik kampung halamannya,

Berulang alik ke TATI itulah rutin hariannya

Rosma Hassan namer penuhnya,

“Slamat” pula namer timangannya,

bab2 berpakaian serahkan kepadanya,

memang konpem “vogue” punyaaa

Berkepit ngan gee ke sana ke mari,

Suka miss call orang tiap2 hari,

Norazahana Ramli empunya diri,

Mdm Nada jugak gelaran yg d beri

Nak kate cina rupenye melayu,

Suka bersendiri tak kire waktu,

Fansuri Hashim nampak jer cam pemalu,

Biler dah close baru laa korang tauu.

Orangnya nampak kurus macam lidi,

Tapi bab2 dressing rambut and speck amatlah trendy,

Soalan accounting kegemaran Zunaidi,

Menyakat orang sudah menjadi satu hobi

Mohd Aliff Misnan namer d beri,

Orangnya specky n kurus kering skali,

Main gitar n jamming amatlah d gemari,

Biler dah tido, konpem bangun tengahari

Orangnya putih dan chomel skali,

Itulah Suraya anak lecturer TATI,

Time bergaul ngan dier kena berhati2,

Kalo silap gaya konpem kecik hati

HBC studon ini lincah skali

Suhaila Hamid Melaka mari,

Suka melalak dan menyanyi setiap hari,

Orangnya slamber and giler2 skali,

Aznarina minah jiwang d TATI,

Tapi skang dah berada d LnG,

Kalo ader problem sker pendam d hati,

Tapi skang mungkin tidakkk lagi

Sekian sajer laaa untuk kali ini,

Kerana idea ku sudah “empty”,

Kalo ader aper2 jangan laaa nak amek hati,

Kerna seloka ni untuk menghiburkan hati

......wellop member2 skalian, ahahahahaha....!!  its quite long time i didnt update my journal coz i had lots n lots thing to do and also got lots n lots of problem happened!! pity me!!  by the way, life must goes on whatever happened i just need to ignore and also should accept it as well!! never mind i already make up my MIND i wanna be STRONG n APPY PERSON!! problems is always come across my daily life and it will be never ending story. so, be COOL n CHILL OUT!!  

but now i can handle it and what i am gonna share with u guys is SNOWING TIME n MEMORIES in BRADFORD, UK!! ahahahahaha... it looks like i am over excited when snowing time and we just hang around together and taking future all day long and i never ever feel bored coz we dont have snow in MSIA so i should spend my time over here by taking lots n lots of photos to share with u guys out there.... ahahahahahha

below is view at my arkwright hall at early in the morning, i am so surprised coz normally the snow will be melted while in the morning but not for today.... ahahahahahha....

these photo had been taken while on the way back to my hall...

these photo had been taken at the first time of snowing in BRADFORD, i am so excited. that picture had been taken when i was sliding from the upper level of place to down!! ahahahaha.. i am so happy and enjoy playing snow till 3 o'clock in the morning!! ahahahaha...

these photo had been taken at ASDA, actually this action were sponteneous coz we didnt expect there's snow over there but we are so lucky coz after we had finished shopping snow came out heavily.... we looks like over excited and just taking the pictures all over the place.... see? erah, abg amen, wan n me!! ahahaha..

these picture had been taken at university hall, there's lots n lots of malaysian people over there, they had so much fun n made snowman!! it suppose to be 2 snowman but we were so excited to taking a picture with snowman so there just one snowman finish!! ahahahahhaa... MALAYSIA BOLEH!!! ahahahaha..

there's it that i can upload over here but i still have lots n lots of picture during snow, u guys just click at http://deeba.fotopages.com all my memories while snowing are being placed and keep over there!!! just add any comments if u wanna to!! ahahahahhaha.........

ok guys, that's it for this time hope u guys ENJOY it

....normally, in marketing mix with have 4P's that should bear in mind but for my whole life i need to concentrate on 4S's hahahahhaha.. there are Sleep, Study, Score and Success!!! muahahahaha...it's ME... i wont bother either anybody like it or not but i prefer to aim myself based on 4S's!!! this is my mission n vision 4 2005!!! i need to score for my degree n also i need tp pay back all of the money, time and energy that my parents spend it to me!! it's really2 VALUABLE for me coz it once in my life where i already use lots n lots of my parents money in order to get a DEGREE!!!

tonite, i suppose to study for my next examination that just around the corner. it will be this coming FRIDAY!! where all of MSIAN MUSLIM celebrate EID but for me, i need to spend my whole day by revising all the notes for my examination!!! anyway, it doesnt matter coz my mum's also didnt go back to TRG coz all of my family are not there. my brother, my dad's n me are at oberC...so, my mum's decide just to stay at KMN and celebrate it there!! anyway, there's nothing to celebrate for EID but normally me n my cousins alwizz have a BBQ at nite coz at my aunty's house have a lot of 'DAGING KORBAN', so no wonder we just hang out together and have a BBQ just for teenagers!!! ahaks!! macik2, pacik2 not allowed!!!  hahahahhaha... i miss that events!! arghhhh... nevermind i should to work hard and score the best for my DEGREE!! INSYAALLAH!!! i hope u guys can pray for me and hope i grad. with flying colorsssssssssssssssss......

....nothing to share wif u guys!! just wanna UPDATE my journal to become more active!!! i wanna compete wif yana n ainur blog that alwizzzz be updated!!! hehehehehe.... actually, today i just stayed in my room spend my leisure time by watching AKADEMI FANTASIA CONCERT!! nothing spesel bout' that concert but i just watch it to avoid me from SLEEP!! then, i make a call to MSIA just wanna spend my freetime. after make a phone call, erah's call me to go upstairs to meet WAN that just came back from SARAWAK for holiday!! he's so NAUGHTY but FUNNY guy!! always make a spontaneous JOKES!!! his also talk about the MSIAN FOOD to let us MISS it!!! arghhhh!!!

after that SHAH comes to join us!! we hang out together and then they ask me and erah to cook for them!!! huhuhuhu..... at first me n erah just IGNORED it but after that we already decided to cook for them just to say THANKS for WAN that bring a souveneir from SARAWAK for us and to say GOODBYE for SHAH that will be go back to MALAYSIA!!! hehehehehehhe....

anyway, we hang out n enjoyyy together!!!!!!!!!! ahaks!!!